February 1, 2026: what a blessing it is to be able to turn off feelings

Happy Sunday happiness crusaders 💖

It’s another (very) cold day here in Gwinnett as we endure this winter storm. Everything is swell on the Melton-girl front. I’m still employed. My daughter is doing so well in school. We’ve been spending time with our community here in GA. Taking it all day by day.

As I’ve mentioned before, I care too much. I care for my family - as resistant as they’ve all been welcoming us back home - and how they perceive me. I care about performing not well enough at my job. I care too much about certain people that I know don’t care for me in the same senses. I care if they do or don’t. I care bout things and people that, in hindsight, don’t have much meaning.

As I’ve been going through the motions of adulthood, I’ve been noticing more and more people…. Just not caring. At first, I’m envious. How does one simply wake up and choose not to care? I’m even thinking “wow, your friend just stabbed you in the back and you’re kinda like… whatever about it.” I get jealous of other people when the actions of others don’t affect them. This is where I recommend the read “The Subtle Art of Not Giving A Fuck” by Mark Manson. I have gifted this to a few friends over the years and it frankly might be my time to read it again for myself.

I then remember a time where I felt nothing. I was literally incapable of producing tears when I was sad. My tears turned into anger (hence the birth of my angry music for happy people playlist on Spotify). I was left feeling incredibly empty. I’m at a point in my life where I’m finally feeling free to FEEL. I allow myself to feel sad when necessary. I’ll allow myself to fall in love - when the time (and person) are right. I’ll allow myself to feel frustrated when something doesn’t make sense.

So, am I envious of others not feeling or caring today? No. What a beautiful thing it is to just

feel. 😇

Until next time, here’s three things today that make me happy:

The sound of children laughing, nachos, gradient color schemes.

Celebrate what makes you happy always.

Stay blessed,

Starshine ✨